THE FINALE X
I’m still working on the wisdom part. It’s a lifetimes work. Now that was rather spiritual wasn’t it? Life gives you a warning just like a yellow card in the beautiful game. I would not be waiting for a red one. Eyes on the prize, right? The closer you get to finding yourself, the more you end up further away. They call that a paradox. I think its the very reason men started sawing women in half and thats on a good day. I do love a touch of magic. Freedom... The one thing I never got is why try to escape reality? Take something that takes you to another dimension. Whats with that? The world needs us now more than ever. Pollution, war, famine and feast for only a few. Drugs are not the answer kids. To be a real musician they say you’ve got to love the Beatles. The sixties statement was free love. You could even make a career out of being a groupie. You know famous for being famous. Nowadays we call them influencers. Imagine Scarlet mania! It would be like Beetle mania except without the haircuts or the drugs. I mean did psychedelia begin the out of your mind experience? Or were we trying to expand our minds beyond the expectation, the analysis of it all. I cant say for sure. But I do wonder. I often wonder where were all at. I could make a great groupie. I get drunk easily, there’s my outrageous dress sense. I can carry off most fashions, thats not code for shop-lifting! I’m good at blagging it, to get into the after parties. I’d just need the unknown pregnancy. Yet when I think of it that was Dana’s destiny. It wasn’t in my tea leaves. What I’ve got is this New Age thinking and a false start. So I wonder what is in my future... I realize its not about the fame or the fortune. I mean I’ve only just discovered myself! When Luke left me, I hit rock bottom. I couldn’t work because... I wasn’t sure how to make it work... How it should work.. Broken... Means you have to begin the repair even when its not your fault. I felt like I no longer mattered. Ironic you see, making a man your everything. They say you go to give in a relationship not to get. I had to deal with my wounded heart and thats when I discovered my voice. A way to pour my heart out in song. And maybe I lied to you. Just a teensy white one. Im not really here to do a show. Not in the hope of seeking fame and fortune because... I’m pretty sure Ive blown that chance too. I do know this. I guess thats why they call it the blues. Holds a hairbrush microphone and stands in silence over come by the weight of it all. Now don’t tell me that moment was the most bored you felt since I rocked up? The funny thing about going through therapy is once its worked, you ask yourself did you really need it? You always had yourself. I get over Luke and even with the superpower to go back and prevent the accident I wouldn’t. Theres this romantic ideal about being strong and standing behind a man. Not like in a queue but kind of like that.  The moment I realized it didn’t matter anymore... Wasn’t when I derailed... For many years I dimmed my light. Until something cracked my shell and it spilled out and Im still learning how to shine it. This is how the global revolution should happen. Now I know I can stop right here because I am grateful. I have so many things to be grateful for. This journey, this yellow brick road isn’t about going back to the home you once knew. Though I did that I moved back home with my Mum and Dad. They told me you can’t stay blue because your Scarlet. They were so right and thank you for cheering me on. Coming home is really finding the centre of yourself to come home to. Its not a building or a possession, though they are all things to be grateful for. Thats what gives you the courage to stand here and say that Im ready to sing. To paint that canvas in all my colours. Stands to sing. Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh, why can't I?
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I? THE END.